Senior Year. It's been really tough. I can't believe that I'm finally here, Only 6 days away from finally being done with high school, and I'm actually quite sad. I love high school, that's why I want to come back one day and teach it. This year has been one of the craziest I've had for sure, and I'll never forget it. I actually put a quote on my yearbook that reads "Never Forget". Was it like this for everyone else when they graduated? It just feels like and ending to a happy time in my life. I'll never ever forget anything from my high school years, and especially not all the crazy and awesome people I met. My life will never be that same now that I've had them in it.
Another thing I'm having to deal with is my impotent fear of the future. I'm not sure exactly what I want, I'm too ambitious for my own good. Everyone asks me all these questions that I don't have an answer to. "Where do you see yourself in ten years?"
Well that just makes me think back to myself ten years ago. If you had asked me then I would have said something along the lines of as a professional basketball player or someone who's super popular in high school. I'd say I'll have a job with a lot of money and a car. I maybe even would have said that I'd have my own apartment by now.
Asking someone where they see themselves in 10 years to me is unfair. Anything I say now may not actually turn out to be.
I'm not a professional basketball player; I don't like sports cause I'm lazy, I'd rather watch TV, play video games, or get on the internet to blog and such.
I've never been popular; I have what friends I do, and am only widely known for things that happen involving me, mistakes I've made, of rumors that others spread.
I don't have a job right now, only get money from my grandma for lunch and necessities, do not have a car, and definitely don't have an apartment.
So you can see how it's an unfair question. You can't ever truly predict the future like that, you can't know everything. Hell, I don't even know where I see myself in 1 year, or even 3 months.
Even 1 year ago I didn't know I'd be where I am today. And I never thought; as a little guy in big ol' Texas, right in its heart in San Antonio; that I'd ever leave my home.
That is why I just simply live life day by day.
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